Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Kimberly's Confession

One of the reasons it was a long time before I tried my hand at writing erotica is because I always wanted to write fiction that left my little mark on the world. Funny, then, to realize after I started that writing erotica gives me that feeling just as much as writing other fiction does. This part, from Serving Her, feels especially personal, even though I'm purely projecting something a beloved person in my life might have been experiencing.


“I’m going to confess something I’ve never told anyone, and you are under strict orders to not tell me it’s okay or anything similar. My first year of college I had a best friend, a boy. We hung out all the time. We talked on the phone every day. We talked about everything. I told him about the boys I liked, the boys I was dating, the boys who hurt me. He would tell me everything, too. He told me he was in love with me.

“I told him I loved him, too, just in a different way. I encouraged him to meet other girls, but he never did. He was just there, for me, whenever I needed him. When I dumped a boy, or a boy dumped me and I felt sad, he was always the first person I called. I would cry. He would help me feel better. Every so often—not that often, because he was stoic and brave—he would call crying over me, and I would always listen. We would talk for hours. He would tell me how much he loved me, and I would reassure him that my love for him was just as real, just different. I would, again, encourage him to date. I would name girls I knew would like him. I truly felt awful for him. It was a long time before I realized I was turned on by it.”

            “Kimberly…”

            “Don’t. You’re under orders.” Her voice sounded thick with tears. Her hand came off the steering wheel and wiped her face. “After listening to him crying over me for hours—after crying with him—I would pleasure myself. Somehow my mind managed to separate it. Enjoying being loved without fully loving back and getting off on it didn’t seem to conflict with trying to be a good friend and help him get over me. I felt like I was doing the best I could with the best intentions, and my arousal just seemed…incidental—stupid as that sounds.

            “He moved back home after our freshman year and wrote me a good-bye letter. He wrote he had to break off contact to move forward in his life. He was very nice, very sorry. I think he’d met someone and needed me out of his life to make room for her, and I was glad. I was hurt, but I was glad for him. I was fully aware of my dominant fantasies, well before that, but I didn’t plan or expect to ever act them out. They, also, seemed incidental to my real life, but I decided, from that point on, to always be clear with boys about who would be in charge if we dated and the exact behavior and respect I would command. I wasn’t going to let anything like that happen again.” Kimberly had kept her composure, besides trace evidence of tears in her voice, but now she got choked up and had trouble speaking. “I mean, everyone remembers their first year of college. It’s supposed to be when you come-of-age or discover who you are or whatever. What does he have to remember, some girl stringing him along all year?”

            “It sounds like,” Alex said. Kimberly fired a look at him, and Alex took a deep breath—torn between wanting to comfort Kimberly and obeying the order she had given—before continuing. “It sounds like the two of you went through an intense experience together. You learned from it and it helped you to become the person you are today. I’m sure the experience had the same effect on him.”

            “Maybe. I hope you’re right. Still, he deserved better. He deserved to have me spank him and sit on his face.”
 
From Serving Her (Pink Flamingo, 2012), available in paperback and as an Ebook

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Back Cover of Serving Her

My favorite moments of Protege Mistress plan has been held up by my participation in NaNo. I'll be back with that soon.

My latest femdom novel, published by Pink Flamingo, is a standalone novel continuing the story of Kimberly and Alex, which began in Courting Her. Here is the back cover synopsis:


After courting her, Alex feels happy and content belonging to a woman he adores, but Kimberly is not about to let her new submissive boyfriend get complacent. She introduces him to taking snaps in a sensitive area, and Alex agrees to that being a punishment she can inflict on him anytime she pleases. His duty is to strive to obey any directive his mistress gives. When his friends come over to meet her, Alex is so overcome by her assertive demeanor, he breaks the one rule she gave him for the evening—to not treat her like his ruler in front of them. Kimberly sneaks him into the bedroom to take care of his punishment. She then demands a goodnight kiss, which Alex eagerly applies. She returns him to his friends and devises a test for them, with Alex’s humiliation the penalty if they fail. Alex soon discovers that Kimberly’s openly dominant nature will make keeping his place in their female-led relationship a secret impossible.

 
Alex spends a typical Sunday afternoon with his mistress: being trained to properly paint her toenails, getting punished to alleviate Kimberly’s annoyance with the maleishness of their neighbor, and enduring the tantalizing torment of remaining on the verge of an orgasm, without knowing if she will permit him one. During an intimate foot worship session, Alex confesses to an unfortunate encounter with a woman from his past. Kimberly surprises him with a creative and apropos punishment. Alex realizes he will have to fully integrate his submissive desires into his new life with Kimberly, if he is to reach the level of dedication she requires for serving her.

 
Includes: female domination, male submission, female body worship, male orgasm denial and edging, cock punishments, spanking, caning, humiliation, and romantic sex

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Fav Moments from Protege Mistress

Subtle Femdom early on in Protege Mistress. Diane has been promoted to Kevin's supervisor.

While they had both been drivers, they had a few friendly exchanges, but when she called him to the phone, Kevin noticed immediately her new managerial tone. “Kevin, come over here.” She smiled, kindly. “I’m going to have you answer phones between deliveries, in addition to your other duties.”

“Okay, sure.” He felt himself blushing. He was pretty sure Diane suspected his crush. He couldn’t imagine a woman as beautiful as her didn’t suspect every man developed some level of infatuation with her. He hoped she didn’t know the extent of his.

Kevin had been kicking himself for not asking her out when he had the chance. The store had a strict policy against managers dating the hourly employees. His berating himself, he knew, was an absurd façade. He wasn’t really fooling himself. He wouldn’t have asked out a beautiful woman like Diane in a million years. He was shy enough with women in his own league. He felt satisfied with work-related conversation and the occasional exchange of personal, friendly anecdotes.

Diane instructed him on how to take orders over the phone, gave him a script to memorize, then went to make pizzas. She returned after several minutes and tested him. She leaned against the counter and played the part of customers placing orders. She made him hold the phone to his ear, as if each were a real call. Kevin, grinning awkwardly, did as he was told. He punched the orders into the computer, without firing them into the system, as she watched and corrected his mistakes. He found her rather impatient with his progress after a few minutes, and he was surprised to find himself feeling ashamed of his frequent blunders. Once he got it down, though, she praised him. “Very good. Now you’re ready to take real calls, all by yourself.”

Kevin knew his enjoyment of her praise showed all over his face.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Patience Review

Patience by Willsin Rowe and Katie Salidas

Tightly focused story, with shifting power dynamics

Plenty for this fan of femdom fiction to chew, or suck, on (that pun will pay off if you read the story.) in this story of a cocky, youthful salesman being taught a lesson by the older woman whose charge he is in. Not to call this a femdom, or even a particularly kinky, story. These are the subtle shifts of power common in the flirtations of new lovers. He claims he seduced her. She responds that a good seductress makes it appear that way. On the way back to their office, he catches her in the parking garage and piques her desires. They get inside and she sends him back to the car for her purse.

The dynamic plays out realistically and builds to an excellent climax. What I liked, one of the things I liked, was that she remained poised and kept the upper hand, at least on the surface. Most of her power surrender came in the form of her eagerness, which with her experience, she was able to keep under control...mostly.

Here is a link to more reviews and an excerpt and summary:

http://www.excessica.com/books/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=2&products_id=583&zenid=0b09da74332ae6c3d5a580bb3ee5220f    

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Bottoms in Love Giveaway!

I'm doing my first ever book giveaway at Sharazade's blog. Please comment by Friday, September 21st for a chance to win. OC Press is giving away a copy of Bottoms in Love. Here is the link to Sharazade's blog:

http://sharazade.fannypress.com/?p=1319

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Guest Blog Post...Patience

I'm excited to have the co-authors of Patience, Willsin Rowe and Katie Salidas, on my blog today! Willsin I've known from facebook, where we've had a few delightful, and oddly long, discussions about words and language. Always fun. I love this interview of Katie Salidas asking Willsin Rowe questions. I won't spoil it by mentioning my favorite part.



Q: You’ve written quite a few wonderfully smutty stories on your own, what made you decide to co-author this story?

 

A: It really did feel like the natural step to take. With Patience, I knew the idea was sound, and that the rough map of the story would work. But the intricacies weren’t meshing. The tiny cogs just weren’t lining up. It just felt like exactly the kind of story that needed input from both genders. And of course, who better to work with than my bestest beta-reading buddy?

 

 

Q: What is it about the genre that draws you in? Why do you love to write Erotica?

 

A: I just love to write, no matter what genre. But for me, Erotica is special. It’s not just about grabbing two characters (or more!) and tossing them in a bed together with the instructions to get it on. It’s to be expected that the characters get all hot and sweaty, sure...but I love the challenge of making it unstoppable rather than opportunistic. The background and shape of the story need to funnel these characters into each other’s...well, let’s say “arms”!

 

 

Q: Pick a favorite line (or interaction between the characters) from Patience and tell us why you like it so much?

 

A: Ah, I love this bit:

 

I turned him to face me. “Edan, I know you won’t like to hear this, but you’re still so young. You see everything in black and white. Only when you get older will you see the shades of gray.”

“Yeah. In the mirror.”

It felt almost like he’d slapped me, but I tried not to let it show. “Well, you sure know how to sweet-talk a girl.”

“What? What did I say?”

“You know what you said.”

“Yes, I do. I just have no fucking idea what you heard.”

 

Why do I love it? Because it shows how the different ages and genders of the characters lends a totally different understanding to one simple remark. And I’d like to point out, too, that the “shades of gray” reference was written in 2010; long before I’d heard of...any particular books that it might make you think of!

 

 

Q: What does your family think of your work? Does your wife ever do any Beta Reading for you?

 

A: Most of my family know, and are pretty much ambivalent about it. My mother was a little taken aback, but my wife is totally supportive. She doesn’t beta for me, but she appears (in one form or another) in many of my stories. She’ll often help me road-test an idea, too!

 

 

Q: We’ve touched on this before. What is it about the older woman/younger man pairing that is so intriguing, in your opinion? 

 

A: Ah, well, I think it comes down to a few elements like confidence, communication and respect (including self-respect). When dealing with males, older women tend to do better than younger women on all those elements (wild generalization, I know). Most young people still have that crazy idea that men and women both speak the same language! Older women also know how to stroke an ego without feeling like they’re diminishing themselves. And lastly, they know what they want, they know where it is...and they don’t assume a young man can find it by himself!

 

Gregory Allen commentary:
Okay, now I can say my favorite part. I love that the "shades of gray" line was left in! We often think of writing bravery as doing something no one has ever done before, but sometimes the brave choice is to stick with what you trust even if some other book has come along and taken a phrase over. Reminds me of U2, at one of their live shows, they introduced "Helter Skelter" by saying, "This is a song Charles Manson stole from the Beatles and now we're stealing it back!" 
 
 
Okay, now here is an exerpt from Patience, available now, so you don't have to wait when you're done with this to read the rest. Enjoy! 

 

Patience © August 2012 by Willsin Rowe and Katie Salidas

 

Excerpt 1

 

He turned, drilling his steel-gray eyes into mine. “You regret last night, don’t you?”

“Last night...” I bit down on my burgeoning smile. “Well, I’ve certainly done smarter things than seduce a co-worker.”

“The way I see it, I seduced you.”

“Such is my skill, young man.” I couldn’t suppress my smile this time. “No, it wasn’t my smartest move, but I certainly don’t regret it. Anyway, I thought you boys compartmentalized everything.”

He slipped his hand onto my thigh. “How can I when you’re right here?”

I bit my lip and squeezed my legs together. “Stop…” It was barely a whisper, not convincing at all. He had such big hands they were impossible to ignore. Especially sliding up my leg like that.

I clamped my hand over his. “No, Edan. We have to get back to the office. We have another pitch tomorrow.”

He dug his fingers in, a needless show of strength. With a puff of disgust he pulled back and turned away. “Fine. Then maybe tomorrow you’ll let me drive.” He shucked out another mint and ground it to death.

“Oh, act your fucking age, Edan.” Jesus. I sound like I’m his mother. I started the car and mashed out my frustration on the gas pedal.

We drove back in man-made silence. Before I’d even turned off the engine Edan had his door open, ready to storm upstairs and broadcast our failure. To distance himself from the stink of it. I curled my fingers around his arm.

“Wait.”

He pulled loose from my tenuous grasp and flounced out of the car. I turned off the engine and rushed after him, my clattering heels echoing off the concrete ceiling of the parking garage.

“Edan, stop!”

The touch of my hand on his shoulder seemed to calm him a little. He stopped and let me turn him around. I felt like his mother again as I pressed him back against the wall. In my heels I was almost eye-to-eye with him. Or would be, if he’d look at me.

“You still have so much to learn, boy.”

“Don’t call me boy. I’m 24 years old.”

“In every way possible.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Nothing. Look, we need to present a united front. Yes, we probably lost the pitch. But those people up there rely on me, and now you, to bring business in. They need to believe in us.”

“Then untie the apron strings! Let me take more control.”

I rested my hand against his chest. Even through the thick wool of his suit, I fancied I could feel the heat of his skin, and I nearly lost my train of thought. “This is not the time for that discussion, Edan.”

“It never is.”

“Stop. I mean it, this is not the time. We need to radiate calm, give off a positive vibe. Can you do that?”

He shook his head and puffed out a resigned chuckle. Finally his cool eyes met mine. “Maybe. What’s it worth to you?”

The warmth of his hand was all too real as he cupped the fullness of my breast through my blouse. I’d been so focused on his eyes I hadn’t seen him move. My breath tripped up as he squeezed my hardening nipple.

“Edan…” The simple urgency of my own voice sounded like a betrayal. With my hand over his I rested my head on his chest, just to take the weight off my untrustworthy knees. With my eyes closed and the heat of his body against me it was easy to forget he was born the year I finished school.

Suddenly he was all hands and breath, all heat and muscle, and lord, did it feel good. I clutched at his belt for balance and he pushed his mouth onto mine.



*****Here is the buy link for Patience, available at Excessia publishing:

http://www.excessica.com/books/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=2&products_id=583&zenid=0b09da74332ae6c3d5a580bb3ee5220f
 

Thursday, August 30, 2012